Coaching with God

03/08/06 - Resisting Purpose

Hello God

Hello Edward.

Ok. So what is up with me? Why when I start stepping more fully into my purpose, and offer something that feels really aligned with who I truly am, do I often have a big energetic crash afterwards?

You tell me.

That’s helpful.

Not in a playful mood right now?

Not especially.

Tell me about the crash.

I feel deflated, defused, exhausted, resistant…

Stop there. Tell me about the resistant feeling.

3/05/06 - Let's talk about money; Part 2

Hello God.

Hello Edward.

I don’t have anything specific today. But I feel like there’s probably something that’s wanting to come out.

Good. Let’s just talk.

Ok. It’s raining here again. But you probably know that.

Yes. Interesting. And?

And, here we go. Money. I’ve decided to make this year, the year that I focus on money. And I’d like you to hold me accountable.

What does that mean: “focus on money” and “hold me accountable?”

Focus on money means that I want to make it a clear and important intention to move into a state of financial abundance. And hold me accountable means that I’d like you to remind me of my intention if you notice me drifting away from it.

Ok. And by financial abundance, what do you mean?

2/18/06 - inner conflict, blame & responsibility

Good morning God.

Good morning Edward.

Wow, my typing is way off today. It took me about five tries to just get the good mornings in. I hope that doesn’t get in the way of our connection.

It will only get in the way if you allow it to do so. Do you want it to be in the way?

Of course not.

Don’t jump to that answer. Check in with yourself before making such an assured statement.

Well, obviously something is in the way of our connection, because I’m feeling on the edge of sickness again. And I know that when I have a strong, unimpeded connection with you it’s unlikely that I will be sick or even on the edge of sickness. But there is not a conscious desire to block that connection.

I didn’t say that it was conscious. That’s why you could answer in the affirmative so quickly. And that’s why I asked you to stop and take a deeper look.

Yes, thank you. That’s helpful. Obviously if I’m in a state of disconnection from you, there is a part of me that wants to be here. I was looking at the way I feel not as a disconnection from you, but rather as a reflection of the internal conflict that I’m engaged in. But I see now that there is really no difference.

Exactly.

2/15/06 - Success = Money???

Hello God.

Hello Edward.

I’d like to continue the conversation we were having last night.

Wonderful.

And I’d like to try and stay focused on the money piece. It’s been coming up again today.

Good. Where would you like to begin?

I’d like to begin with success. I’m finalizing the content for tomorrow night’s class on defining success, and I’m realizing, I think for the first time, the extent to which I have internalized this belief that earning lots of money is THE definition of success. And while I know it’s not true, I can feel the roots of that belief dug into the depths of my being. Yes, that may be a bit dramatic, but it really does feel that way.

Actually, it doesn’t sound dramatic at all. It sounds perfectly believable to me.

Well thank you for that feedback. It’s good to know that I’m not just being a whiner.

Doesn’t sound whiny to me. At least not yet.

2/14/06 - Let's talk about Money

Hello God.

Hello Edward.

I’d like to talk about money.

Great. I love money.

You do?

Of course. Does that surprise you?

I suppose it does a bit.

And why would that be?

I guess it comes from the part of me that still perceives money as “not spiritual.”

Is it possible that anything is “not spiritual?”

In the grand scheme of things a suppose not.

Is there any scheme other than the grand one?

1/18/06 - Knowing Where You're Stuck

Hello God.

Hello Edward.

I’m feeling a bit stuck.

Where?

Here.

And where is here?

Here is in a space of…I’m not sure how to describe it. It’s a bit dark, a bit down. I really think that stuck is the best word.

Stuck describes your level of movement, not your condition. If your car was stuck, it would be important to know if it was stuck in mud or snow or on ice, or if a tire was flat or the battery dead.

I see what you mean. So let me take a moment and describe the circumstances of my stuckness.

Good.

12/30/05 - The truth about faith

Hello God.

Hello Edward.

Thanks for the rain. It feels good.

You’re quite welcome.

I want to talk about faith today.

Good topic.

Well, I’m not sure because I want to start by telling you that I don’t have the kind of faith in You that You’re asking for?

What do you mean?

Well I wouldn’t leave my family. I couldn’t. And then I think of how Abraham was asked to show his faith and I think, “no way.”

11/18/05 Letting Your Light Shine

Good morning God.

Good morning Edward.

I’d like to talk about being seen this morning.

Sounds interesting.

Yes. It is. It’s interesting that it’s so difficult to allow ourselves to be really seen.

What do you mean?

Well, I just sent out ILC-Inspire yesterday. And this issue seems to have struck a chord with people. I’ve gotten wonderful, positive feedback from lots of people. And I’m feeling a great, dark, heaviness within me. It feels like a part of me is fighting to hold onto the anonymity I’ve hidden within for so long. It’s as if this part of me is completely unwilling to acknowledge this sense of being seen. Am I being clear?

Yes. And I feel the resistance.

November 10, 2005

Hello God.

Hello Edward.

I’m struggling a bit with this month's issue of Inspire. I’ve started and scrapped three different essays. I’m wondering if you could give me a bit of guidance and inspiration.

Of course. How can I help?

I think I just need to do a bit of brainstorming with you to figure out what it is that I really want to write about.

Great. Let’s do it.

Ok. Where do I start?

What are you excited about right now? What’s up for you in your life? What learning edge are you working? What do you most want to share about your present experience?

Great questions.

October 28, 2005

Good morning God.

Good morning Edward.

I’d like to talk with you about my life vision.

Great. That sounds juicy.

Well, yes, it is, or could be, if I would allow it to be.

What do you mean?

Well, I feel like I have this belief that I can’t have a juicy life vision. Whenever I start visioning about it, I get sidetracked. I start thinking about how it can’t happen, or all the logistical steps needed to get there, or the “who do I think I am to have such a life” voice. It’s so weird. I get it on an intellectual level – that I CAN have a really cool and juicy life – but on a body, mind, feeling, energy level I get stuck. Now, with that said, the work I’m doing with Drew seems to have really helped me take this awareness to a deeper level. I think I’m getting it more fully. And that’s why I want to talk with you about it.