Hello God.
Hello Edward.
Well I went out to the ocean yesterday. I made the commitment to open a space for the grief and I followed through.
Wonderful. And how was it?
It was an interesting experience.
In what way?
Well, the ritual itself was quite gentle There was no big cathartic emotional release. I did consciously call the grief out from deep within the cells of my body, but even that felt gentle. I called the grief from my physical body into my emotional body, but I didn’t feel it, at least not very much. It’s almost as if the grief was coming out of my body and just releasing into the ocean and the rock that I was laying on. But here’s the interesting part. Because there was no big emotional release, I sort of assumed that it was not any big deal. I was thinking that I had spent a nice morning at the ocean. But by the end of the day I was totally whacked! My body felt drained, I had a headache, I could barely stay awake long enough to get Ella to sleep. That was when I knew that something more significant had happened at the ocean. I’m wondering if you have any thought or observations on what happened.
Hello God.
Hello Edward.
Well I went out to the ocean yesterday. I made the commitment to open a space for the grief and I followed through.
Wonderful. And how was it?
It was an interesting experience.
In what way?
Well, the ritual itself was quite gentle There was no big cathartic emotional release. I did consciously call the grief out from deep within the cells of my body, but even that felt gentle. I called the grief from my physical body into my emotional body, but I didn’t feel it, at least not very much. It’s almost as if the grief was coming out of my body and just releasing into the ocean and the rock that I was laying on. But here’s the interesting part. Because there was no big emotional release, I sort of assumed that it was not any big deal. I was thinking that I had spent a nice morning at the ocean. But by the end of the day I was totally whacked! My body felt drained, I had a headache, I could barely stay awake long enough to get Ella to sleep. That was when I knew that something more significant had happened at the ocean. I’m wondering if you have any thought or observations on what happened.
I do. You recognized grief within you. You acknowledged the need to open space for it. You committed to creating that space. You followed through on that commitment. And in doing so you entered that ritual in a willing, receptive space rather than a resistant space. You see, you recognized the presence of grief within you early in its growth process. Your awareness of your inner world is growing. Before you would not have been aware of that grief until it began coming out in other ways. You would have waited for it to force you into a ritual space, or worse, waited until it came out in other ways, perhaps hurting other people. In this case, you caught it when it was just starting to grow, and you recognized the need to give it room to come out into the light. In doing so you allowed the release to happen in a much more gentle and graceful manner.
That all makes sense, but then, why was I still feeling so whacked out last night?
The release process may have been gentle, but that does not mean it lacked power. You are in the process of discovering that releasing that which no longer serves you does not necessarily have to be traumatic and painful. It can be gentle and graceful and still be powerful. Consider this example. If you were to hold onto the handle of a bag very tightly, and someone else was trying to pull it away from you, what would be the result?
A struggle, a fight, and ultimately one or both of us would have the bag forcibly pulled from our hand.
Exactly. Now if, on the other hand, you were holding that bag, and as soon as you felt someone else tugging on it, you opened your hand, what would happen?
There would be no struggle, no resistance, and I would very easily let go of the bag.
Exactly. That is the difference you are beginning to explore in your personal evolution. As soon as you feel something tugging on a part of you, you are learning to let go, easily and gracefully.
But what if it’s a part of me that I don’t want to let go of?
That’s been the problem in the past. You have not wanted to let go of anything!
So are you suggesting that I have to be willing to let go of everything?
That is up to you to discover. You are always at choice.
Well thank you for that. We’ll definitely explore this more later. But now I have to get ready for my first client. I’ll talk to you again soon.
I’ll be here.
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