Hello God.
Hello Edward.
Well it’s been more than a week since I’ve called on you for a session. And I really notice it.
How so?
I feel less connected with my sense of purpose. My sense of directed energy is lacking. I’m not getting up before Ella, and when she wakes up around 6:00 I’m feeling like I want to sleep more. I don’t have that vibrant desire to get up and begin working that I’ve had before.
And you’re attributing all of these feelings to the fact that we have not spoken in over a week?
No. I recognize there are many factors contributing to how I feel, and, when I connect with you more often I definitely feel more connected to my purpose and direction.
Well then it’s settled.
What.
We’ll just have to connect more often.
That’s actually what I want to talk about with you today.
Hello God.
Hello Edward.
Well it’s been more than a week since I’ve called on you for a session. And I really notice it.
How so?
I feel less connected with my sense of purpose. My sense of directed energy is lacking. I’m not getting up before Ella, and when she wakes up around 6:00 I’m feeling like I want to sleep more. I don’t have that vibrant desire to get up and begin working that I’ve had before.
And you’re attributing all of these feelings to the fact that we have not spoken in over a week?
No. I recognize there are many factors contributing to how I feel, and, when I connect with you more often I definitely feel more connected to my purpose and direction.
Well then it’s settled.
What.
We’ll just have to connect more often.
That’s actually what I want to talk about with you today.
Great.
One thing that I’m noticing is that now that I’ve committed to posting our conversations online, I’m catching myself shutting off our connection if I’m not at my computer to write it down. The few times that I have tried to record a conversation after the fact, it has come out all jumbled. I’ll catch myself beginning to talk with you and then I’ll think “oh wait, this is a good topic and I want to post this, so I can’t do it now.” So what happens is a stop talking with you at that moment, and usually I don’t bring it up with you again when I do get to the computer. So I could really use some input on this. How do I stay true to myself and my desire to kindled a strong, consistent connection with you, while at the same time continuing to have conversations to post online.
It’s an interesting dilemma.
Yes. What do you suggest?
Come now, Edward, you know me better than that. You’re going to have to work it a bit more than that.
I had a feeling but it’s always worth a try.
Indeed. Well let’s begin with an exploration of why you are doing this in the first place. For whom are you recording these conversations?
I would say I’m recording them for others. I’m having them for myself. Although that’s not necessarily true. In the past I have written our conversations in my journals without any thought that anyone else would read them. So perhaps I am, to a certain extent, recording them for myself as well.
What is the difference, if any, between our thought conversations and our recorded conversations?
Our recorded conversations are more formal, more specific, more focused. When we have thought-based conversations, I tend to get a bit lazy – or what I consider lazy – in that I’ll allow much of the information pass between us without words, oftentimes resulting in transformation or understanding that is not governed by my mind. In essence the two methods of connecting feel quite different in their purpose.
And is there room for both of them?
Absolutely. Even as we’re talking I’m realizing that these, written conversations are useful for formulating specific, action-based plans and for clarifying directions and things like that. Our thought conversations are important for when something needs to shift energetically or unconsciously. But at the same time, I know, from experience, that you have the ability, in these written conversations, to guide me to the place of non-verbal, non-thinking transformation. And I also have seen that, in our thought connection, you can be very effective at helping me clarify my goals and direction. So it really is a both/and situation. Which brings us right back to where we began.
Which is where?
I’m not sure.
Well why don’t we start where we are?
Which is?
Right here.
Oh, right. Ok. Here’s what is coming up for me right now. I’m clear that I don’t want to interrupt our conversations just because of a desire to post them online. I’d much rather be in a place of trust that the written conversations we have will be perfect. If there is missing information that people have questions about they can leave a comment and I will do my best to fill them in. That way I’ll feel free to connect with you whenever I want, and for however long is needed.
Wonderful. I like that idea as well. It means that we’ll be spending more time together.
Yes. Ultimately I would love for us to spend ALL of our time together.
We already do spend all of our time together.
Well then I guess what I want is to be able to acknowledge that we are together all the time, rather than feeling like I only have access to you when I specifically ask for your input.
That is what I want as well.
I think we’re making progress.
Indeed we are.
Good. I would hate to think that all of this work I’m doing was not doing anything.
It is. Trust me.
I do.
Good.
And now, I’m going to post this and then work on the draft for the book chapter. I’d like to formally invite you to join me in that process.
I would love to join you.
Great. Actually, I’ll post this later. Let’s jump right in to the chapter.
I like that idea.
Good. I’ll see you there.
Yes you will.
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